Reminders.

I am doing well and for the most part am living very normal day to day. If I still have cancer, it is not affecting my life apart from occaisional reminders. I have many hotflashes that remind me of the toll cancer and the treatment have had on my body. I am very flat-chested! Sometimes my port, which has been surgically implanted in my chest for infusions, is uncomfortable. Once a month I go to the infusion center for a Zometa treatment. Pink ribbons. Charlotte Radiology calling to schedule a PET Scan for July 19. That one has caused me a lot of restless fear. I hate that, I don't know why it has such a stronghold on me. Please pray for me, for the results of the scan to be great, and for my peace to be such that God is glorified. I see the oncologist on July 26, the week after my scan, to get the results. I have been surrounded by several people who have received devastating news of cancer. It is always difficult, my heart aches for each of them in a very deep way that only my personal experience can bring. As I am writing this I am reminded of my beautiful Savior, who knows every hurt in that same deep way because He has experienced it, and because He loves us so. I am so blessed and so very thankful for the hope I have in Christ Jesus, and for the love and grace I have so powerfully experienced throughout this journey. He owes me nothing, yet He gives me everything. I have learned so much and I wish sometimes that I could shout from the rooftops so all could hear of how God has so tenderly shown His grace and mercy. For now, I leave you with this verse as I continue to ask for your faithful love and prayers. Jesus speaking, John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful."