Our God is Healer

We are overjoyed to share our praises with all of you! My PET scan showed no cancer any where! The CT scan showed the same lesions as previously, still unchanged. Dr. Limentani had told me that the routine for a while would be quarterly PET scans, but with this scan, he is confident to only order a CT scan in three months. We can order a PET scan at that time, he said, if the CT scan shows anything he is concerned about.

 WOW!!!

I have no words, just praising, resting, and trusting Him with tomorrow. The joy I feel right now would not be the same if He had not shown me through this journey that my trust is in Him. Period. Not in Him if I get the news I desire. Today I am thankful for His good news, His healing, and His faithfulness. Mason Thomas shared a passage with me a few months ago. It is a little long, but appropriate for today. Thank you for your prayers, and join us as we shout His praises from the roof top! Love to you all!

1 Corinthians 1:8-11 "For we do not want you to be unaware, brethren, of our affliction which came to us in Asia, that we were burdened excessively, beyond our strength, so that we despaired even of life; indeed, we had the sentence of death within ourselves so that we would not trust in ourselves, but in God who raises the dead; who delivered us from so great a peril of death, and will deliver us, He on whom we have set our hope. And He will yet deliver us, you also joining in helping us through your prayers, so that thanks may be given by many persons on our behalf for the favor bestowed on us through the prayers of many."

 Please join the Vincent family, as we give thanks to our merciful, sovereign God.

Trusting

I am sitting here quietly, listening to some worship music and waiting for Mason to get home. I wasn't going to post until I saw Dr. Limentani tomorrow. I have had quite a week of wrestling with God and slowly turning all of my fears over to him. I feel like I have been here before, and being the sinner that I am, I will probably be here again. But I have been given a couple of verses this week that have been very freeing (I'm not sure that is a word, but it works here!) and I want to share them. You see, I have to have faith that trusts God not only for the outcome I desire. That is a crazy faith that keeps me paralyzed with fear. I have to trust God. I can and I should, He is my everything. He has the big picture, not just the little tiny image I can see. He is faithful, I have personally experienced that my whole life and in a very special way over this past year. I am not His advisor and I am so thankful that He does not need or desire my advice. He loves me perfectly, and I am here for His glory. One day all of this will make sense to me, and I have a feeling I won't even want to ask any questions. For today, I am thankful for today. I am thankful to know such a beautiful savior who has restored me to such an amazing God. I have been touched in a special way by three of my pastors this week, that is a lot of special attention! It is such a comfort to know that God sends His army when I am so weak. Today one of the special touches was in the form of the prayer time in the service where he spoke of trusting God and the sin of not trusting. The verses I am sharing are from a Beth Moore book; I have needed a wide variety of soldiers! Mason has just walked in, so I will leave you with these verses and a promise to share what I find out tomorrow. Again, thank you for your love and prayers. Proverbs 31:25 "She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come." Psalm 112:7-8 "He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is secure, he will have no fear; in the end he will look in triumph on his foes."

Reminders.

I am doing well and for the most part am living very normal day to day. If I still have cancer, it is not affecting my life apart from occaisional reminders. I have many hotflashes that remind me of the toll cancer and the treatment have had on my body. I am very flat-chested! Sometimes my port, which has been surgically implanted in my chest for infusions, is uncomfortable. Once a month I go to the infusion center for a Zometa treatment. Pink ribbons. Charlotte Radiology calling to schedule a PET Scan for July 19. That one has caused me a lot of restless fear. I hate that, I don't know why it has such a stronghold on me. Please pray for me, for the results of the scan to be great, and for my peace to be such that God is glorified. I see the oncologist on July 26, the week after my scan, to get the results. I have been surrounded by several people who have received devastating news of cancer. It is always difficult, my heart aches for each of them in a very deep way that only my personal experience can bring. As I am writing this I am reminded of my beautiful Savior, who knows every hurt in that same deep way because He has experienced it, and because He loves us so. I am so blessed and so very thankful for the hope I have in Christ Jesus, and for the love and grace I have so powerfully experienced throughout this journey. He owes me nothing, yet He gives me everything. I have learned so much and I wish sometimes that I could shout from the rooftops so all could hear of how God has so tenderly shown His grace and mercy. For now, I leave you with this verse as I continue to ask for your faithful love and prayers. Jesus speaking, John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful."